Here's to a New Year!!

As we come upon the New Year, I have to say that I really am so glad. It has been a rough year for me and so many of my friends. This next year just has to be better... for us all. I am looking forward to a fresh start. I was thinking about some New Years Resolutions and I have decided this year, I am not going to make any except to try to take some time out for myself. I figure, that way I have done nothing to fail, and I can always use a bit more "me" time. :)

I am also ready for J to go back to work, SO ready. I have tried to be patient, but it is so difficult when I come home from a (very) long day at work and then I have to clean and put the kids to bed etc. because he hasn't done a damn thing all day. It has been two months since the surgery, surely by now he can do some light household chores?? But he doesn't, so I spend my evenings and weekends desperately trying to create some order in my home.

So, as I said.. here's to a New Year and even better, a New Me!

Cheers!!

Is it Christmas yet?

The holidays are amazing and I love them except....
my kids drive me CRAZY! They are so busy this time of the year and so hyper. They want to find out what the gifts are, how many gifts they have and who they came from. It amazes me how much energy they have this time of year. There is no slowing them down. Where can I get just a piece of their energy? I think if we could bottle it up there would be a lot of money in that.

Now I have more gifts to wrap and children to wrestle into bed.

Wishing you and your family a very Merry Christmas and all God's Blessings in the New Year!

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Migraines!

What is it about migraines that can just knock the life out of you? I am sitting here with another migraine and really just want to crawl under a rock. A quiet rock with no kids screaming! A dark rock without the sun shining through. I usually get these once or twice a month and it kills me. I can't figure out why I get them and the doctor can't either. Some people tell me it is because of stress, hmm.. these started when I was about 15, what on earth at 15 are you stressed about?

The nice thing when I was younger is that I could crawl into a room and go to sleep.... for hours. Now, not so much. I have too many responsibilities and who can sleep when your kids are desperately vying for your attention? Not me, and of course it doesn't help the usually my husband usually has some type of responsibility to take care of so then I am usually fighting through a migraine while trying to take care of 3 kids. Very difficult! I do feel sorry for them because I have no patience when I have a migraine. And they are usually in trouble for being loud, or just obnoxious.

Off to take some medicine and try to make it go away in time to get my family out to church this evening.

What is it about Black Friday?

What is it about getting up at the crack of dawn and running around with all the psychotic women. The thing is, I am not sure if I am scared or excited. I am excited about the potential of all those great deals. Scared, hell yeah I am scared. How on this green earth did I get myself talked in to this? Have you seen the video's? I mean really... women are mauling other women to get a damn Elmo doll. Now that is just nuts, who in their right mind attacks another woman for a freakin' toy?

So I have two sister's dragging (well not totally) me out to these stores. I am still debating if I will press charges if I am damaged in any way. HA HA! And if that isn't bad enough, I have chosen to get up at the crack of dawn (someone said something about some of the stores opening at 4am) to get out there and spend my money.

Ahhh.. the joys of the Holidays. 'Tis the Season right??

What is exhaustion?

Okay, well if this isn't it than I don't know what is! ;-) I have been "working" round the clock for the last few days. I wake up at 6am or so and get ready for work, go to work for a full day then come home. Once home the "real" work begins. Taking care of my little monkey's and of course J. The kids, well that is the easy part. Not quite sure how to handle J. He is still dealing with a lot of his pain, which is understandable but man I hate dealing with the anger. WTF? I didn't do this to him, nor did the kids so why he feels the need to treat us like this is just beyond me. Why are men such babies? Why do they treat everyone else like crap when they feel like crap. I really want to try to take care of him and care for him. But the more he yells and the more angry he gets the harder it is for me to do it. Of course, my kids must know that something is up, because they have been up late and throughout the night for the last few nights making this all the more difficult. It's almost like having a new baby in the house, well except they are all much bigger than a new baby! Well the exhaustion hits and I must go to bed. Until the next time....

A new journey begins

In hopes of starting a new "life" with J I begin a new blog as well! My dear husband of 8 years has had his 3rd back surgery today. Today they removed 28 screws and 2 titanium rods that were placed in his back just over 2 years ago. Things really have been rough for us and I am praying that this is what he needs to move on and improve his outlook on life. I have dealt with his anger and his pain for 4 years now and things just haven't gotten any better But today, today the pain is supposed to go away. The doctor has removed the hardware that was causing him so much discomfort and I just *know* this is a new beginning. His patience will come back to us as well as the humor and the joy he used to have. :) So as I sit here in the hospital by his side I will trust the doctor when he says that this will be a relief to J and we will begin our journey to heal his body and repair our marriage.