Well crap...

Well it has been forever since my last post, but believe it or not I am still alive! :) Unfortunately J did not heal the way he should have at all. So in a few short weeks (November 17th) J will go into a 4th surgery on his back. I am not sure how I feel, some days I am sad, most days I am scared to death and yet there are some days when I am completely numb and feel like I have no emotion about it at all. Things are just so difficult right now, the economy sucks, and of course, my car picks now to break. Of course, now that I pretty much have no money to fix it, is the time that this car chooses to need a major repair. Uggghhhh..

I am trying to be happy though, I have my family. I have a great job, well 2 in fact and we are surviving. I can make my house payment and buy food for my family. There are many things to be grateful for. It just tends to get overshadowed by all the negative. But of course, this to shall pass....