Calorie Counting

Well, I am not the biggest fan of calorie counting and I know that I would never have dreamed that I would be doing it now. But there is something to be said for knowing how many calories you are putting into your body. So I am keeping a food journal and writing it all down. It is actually pretty amazing to see how much crap I shovel in my body every day. So much for taking care of God's temple. I have a pretty big goal, I would like to get down 25 lbs. by September, we'll see how it goes. It is not set in stone but it would sure be nice. I am also trying to get my workouts in each week. We'll see if it works, but if nothing else, I do feel better about myself.

Baby Steps

It's the baby steps that make the journey right? At least, that is what I have been told. I understand that nothing comes overnight, but sometimes the slowness of it all just kills me. In 1 year I have gained more weight than I thought possible, now while it took me 1 year to put it on, I am so bummed that after a week it isn't falling off. LOL.. ridiculous I know but I am just so disappointed. Most of all, how in the world do I learn to control my eating habits. I do good for a day, then it all goes down hill. Then I get upset at myself for not sticking to it so I eat more. A viscious cycle. But I am not giving up. I am praying to God to help me through this, I know He can. So for now, I am praying and taking baby steps. I can't change overnight.

Time for some changes

Lately I have felt that I am just not good enough, I am gaining weight and my marriage seems to be drifting into a dangerous, unkown place. For the last month I have felt helpless to stop any of it. But after praying it out I am on a mission to change it. On Valentine's Day Jason and I watched Fireproof, it was fantastic and really helped me see that marriage isn't always about love. It's about choices, it is the choice to hold your tongue when you are angry. It is a choice to show your love, even when you are frustrated. In order to make our marriage solid, we have to change the choices we are currently making. They talked about a book "The Love Dare" in the movie and I really think I may get that book. It is a day by day, step by step guide to help you re-learn how to treat your spouse.

I also started back at the gym. My committment to myself is at least 3 days a week I will work out. I have to feel better about myself, and in order for me to do that I have to lose some weight. I am hoping not only will I lose some weight by working out, but I hope to relieve some of my stress as well. Funny how the older you get the harder it is to focus on yourself? We have got to re-train ourselves not to do that!

Women's Retreat

I was blessed enough this weekend to take some time for myself and I went to the Get Real retreat with Southeast Christian Church. It was amazing! We stayed at the Broadmoor hotel in Colorado Springs and it was just beautiful. I had not idea what a wonderful hotel it was. I am definitely going back!

I learned a lot on this retreat. Most of all, I learned that in order to get the most I can from God. I have to let down my guard and give everything to Him. All of my hurt, my pain, my fears, my joy, my happiness. All of it! What a hard thing to do. My first instinct is always to go to my friends first. But this year I am going to work towards talking to God first, then going to my friends.

A friend of mine suggested a prayer journal, what a great idea! It is much easier to remember all of the blessings God has granted when you have your prayers to look back on and see. It may take time, but God does answer prayers. I am just not usually as patient as you should be. LOL... It was a tremendous learning experience for me, I can't wait until the next retreat!!

It's here! The New Year is here!

Well we have finally arrived at the New Year and with it brings a lot of hopes and expectations that this year will NOT be like last year. Jason is doing well and he is even starting to help out with the house again! YES!! Slowly the pressures are being taken off and I can see an end to this. I am thrilled to be going on a women's retreat with my church on the 17th and 18th. I hope that it will help me reconnect with my family and strengthen my Faith. It has been rocky lately and I am confident that this is the boost I need to really make this year everything it should.

I did sign up for LA Boxing, now I just need to make it in there! I am hoping to get things together next week so I can start working out at least 3 times a week. It really looks like a blast and it is so close! I could walk there on a nice day. But I don't want to push it! ;)

Until next time...