What is exhaustion?

Okay, well if this isn't it than I don't know what is! ;-) I have been "working" round the clock for the last few days. I wake up at 6am or so and get ready for work, go to work for a full day then come home. Once home the "real" work begins. Taking care of my little monkey's and of course J. The kids, well that is the easy part. Not quite sure how to handle J. He is still dealing with a lot of his pain, which is understandable but man I hate dealing with the anger. WTF? I didn't do this to him, nor did the kids so why he feels the need to treat us like this is just beyond me. Why are men such babies? Why do they treat everyone else like crap when they feel like crap. I really want to try to take care of him and care for him. But the more he yells and the more angry he gets the harder it is for me to do it. Of course, my kids must know that something is up, because they have been up late and throughout the night for the last few nights making this all the more difficult. It's almost like having a new baby in the house, well except they are all much bigger than a new baby! Well the exhaustion hits and I must go to bed. Until the next time....

A new journey begins

In hopes of starting a new "life" with J I begin a new blog as well! My dear husband of 8 years has had his 3rd back surgery today. Today they removed 28 screws and 2 titanium rods that were placed in his back just over 2 years ago. Things really have been rough for us and I am praying that this is what he needs to move on and improve his outlook on life. I have dealt with his anger and his pain for 4 years now and things just haven't gotten any better But today, today the pain is supposed to go away. The doctor has removed the hardware that was causing him so much discomfort and I just *know* this is a new beginning. His patience will come back to us as well as the humor and the joy he used to have. :) So as I sit here in the hospital by his side I will trust the doctor when he says that this will be a relief to J and we will begin our journey to heal his body and repair our marriage.